lord, please help me get through this! this is an honest plea for help!
so here's the laydown of yesterday and today (because yesterday plays into this, as well): yesterday, I watched my niece (as I agreed to) until about 9:30 when my sister (Candice) called and asked me if I minded watching Nichole (my niece) while she went to her other job (which I knew nothing about and even now, I don't know what the job is, but anyway) for a few hours. She has a something due on friday that if she doesn't pay, she will go to jail for (and guess who I'll be watching even more?) so I say yes because... I mean, I can't really say no, can I? *sigh* So at 3 in the fucking morning, she finally fucking shows up after I spent 2 hours getting her daughter to sleep (finally!) and just picks her up easy as pie and takes her home. Nichole is already sleep so all she has to do is go home and put the girl in bed, while I had to deal with putting her to sleep and I don't even get a fucking thanks for it! I'm not even asking for a heartfelt thank you! Just some kind of fucking thanks!!!
So at about 3:30, I finally fall asleep. But today, I need to wake up and go get my scheldule for school. So i end up getting around 5 hours of sleep before I have to wake back up and go get my scheldule and I didn't even get it because the message that was sent to everyone was wrong and I have to wait till fucking August before I find out what classes I have!! (on a good note, I think my dad noticed I wasn't at my best and he rented me a movie I really wanted to see) So now, I go home and eat before my sister calls and fucking tells me that she's running late and will I please come meet her at the door so I can get my niece. Rolling my eyes, I agree. My niece is acting fucking sleepy (like she has a damn excuse) and not paying attention to a thing I say and doing whatever the fuck she wants. Finally she starts playing with my little sister (Debriana) when Debriana's friend (who I really don't like; she annoys me, always trying to touch when after the only thing I asked of her was to not touch me, and besides, she is sooooo not worth my sister's friendship, but whatever) comes over to play so that is annoying me even more. And now, Nichole is laying on them as they try to play my (I'm very possesive) playstation 2 and their yelling at her to get off and acting so generally fucking helpless that I can't fucking stand it! And they are fucking 9 and 10 years old and they are getting bullied by a damn 3 year old!! At that point (in their shoes), I wouldn't care about getting in trouble. She will move off of me! But no~! they just yell and call to me like they can't just move her themselves! And i know that Nichole is sleepy so I try to lay her down and stop yelling so she'll just go to sleep and stop annoying me, but now she's whining about how the covers aren't perfect~! So I just say fuckitall and leave her. And then Debriana's friend is reading to Nichole, which isn't a problem by itself, but when combined with the fact that she is fucking rapping the story to her - badly - and i don't like rap anyway (for the most part) just bugs the hell out of me! Next my niece starts ripping the wallpaper off the walls - again - and she's whining and my sister and her friend are yelling and jumping on the bed and Nichole's crying cause she's getting in trouble and I've still got like 4 fucking hours of this shit!!!
And to top all of it fucking off, I'm PMS-ing and I've got some kind of lump on the back of my leg that hurts like hell and makes sitting a fucking bitch.
So yeah, how the hell is your day going?